Sometimes I wonder which is worse, not knowing how fortunate you are or knowing how unfortunate you are.

And yah, I still wonder why does our beloved God allow annoying and saddening things to happen. Then again, His thoughts are not our thoughts, His ways are not our ways.

Dear Cheryl: Hope you've fully recovered. Don't worry I'm just so sure God punishes the wrong doers as well!! One lesson I've learnt (and am still learning), He gives and takes away. Material things and losses, let's not hold onto them so tightly that we fail to see His hand. Matthew 6:33 Seek Him first and many more things will be added unto you :)

Dear Elizabeth: I just know that You'll be in very good hands. The process is never easy, but the same God who knows you by name and the very number of hairs on your head, He knows your heart's desire. Matthew 7:9 What man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? How much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him. Continue to trust :)

Dear Jasmine: I pray that the Lord will grant you peace. John 14:27 Peace not as the world gives, let your heart not be troubled, neither let it be afraid. The Lord only wants you to be happy not with own human strength, but be happy in Christ. The faithful Father has seen you through the peaks and valleys of life, you already have the greatest gift. In everything give thanks, everything dear :)

To people that I don't contact so often, it doesn't mean I've forgotten you all k. Occasionally I'll revisit the box in my head labelled memories and do some good searching in there.

Aye, you might think I'm being so holy and goody-two-shoes. Hah! You're so wrong. I struggle with plentiful, numerous, countless, infinite problems too. But at the end of the day, I know I'm saved and I'm safe. At the very least, even if (touch wood) I die tomorrow in my sleep or some lorry just has to bang into me, I know where I'm going. And all I would be thinking of 1 minute before I pass out is not whether I've completed my tutorials or submitted my 1000 word report. I'll only be thinking of how many would have called me a faithful friend, and how faithful have I been to my loved one up in heaven. And probably, how many people on earth have yet to know His beautiful name and beautiful grace.

What would you be thinking of at the last minute of your life?

In the meanwhile, let's hope we run the race well :) Oh God, please preserve us. Preserve not as in sprinkle salt and hang us up to dry, but preserve our souls.